“I am no longer ashamed for the noise I make”

Let’s chat about community and putting yourself out there and not letting negative mindsets stop you from pursuing what you love and being your true self. As someone who fears being received the wrong way, I’ve come to realize that this is a certain yet painful aspect of life. Sometimes the ones you love don’t understand, or a stranger disagrees with you completely, even when you’re trying to be palatable to them.

The pains of being yourself and not being received with love or kindness is the fear of rejection that controlled my life for so long. I would change myself so I could somehow hopefully be loved unconditionally… I would change myself just for them to never truly SEE me and who I truly was. I was hiding behind false personalities and lying to myself and others.

A major reason why I think we trade our true selves for being liked is the fear of never being loved in the first place. However, this isn’t what true love is. True love is not hiding every part of yourself and what you think. Blindly agreeing with a person and squashing yourself to be bite sized leaves people more hungry, demanding and thinking they are owed your submission. It’s exhausting.

Let’s talk about the beauty of being truly SEEN. Imagine your true self caught up in the moment and smiling wide. Then for a moment someone sees you in all your vulnerable beauty and is allowed to peer into your soul for just a moment. The way they relish in you and how you feel truly seen and loved without lies and pretending.

That feeling is what stopped me from hiding – I know it’s out there and there’s others who connect on deeper levels and have their hearts open enough to be honest in this world. I personally have become turned off by any form of inauthenticity and surface level distractions.

I’m also aware that this is NOT easy. It’s terrifying sharing your self and being vulnerable… It’s also terrifying for me to feel like I’m living life as someone I’m not… I will no longer be ashamed to make noise and be myself.

Much Love My Friends